madonna and tanya

i saw madonna's documentary earlier in one of the cable movie channels and yes, i am a fan. not because she's a great singer or a great dancer or performer but because she was able to live a life that she wanted and she is still living that kind of life. no matter what it took, she got it. no matter what people said, she did it. and she did some really nasty and provocative stuff in her early days as the material girl. but i guess, when the idea of having that documentary popped into her head, she didn't think that people will see her for who she really is. she's not the vogue girl or the material girl or the girl who sang 'like a virgin', she was a lonely girl. she lost her mom when she was five and though her dad was a loving father, it still wasn't enough to fill the void inside her. she was lonely though she was into the 'now', she was in the moment yet in her fast paced life, she lost the time to reflect and slow down and appreciate everything that was happening to her. she demanded a lot from everyone thats why everyone demanded a lot from her too. it was kinda sad because she IS madonna, the IT girl but it seemed like the success that she had then wasn't enough. heck, i dont know what was missing but if u were to watch that documentary, you would notice that her eyes were sad. her face was smiling but not her eyes.

now i love her for that, because she was bold enough to document her life as she was doing this tour and because she stood up just when everyone was dragging her down. she didn't give in. she wasn't right in her decisions at times but what mattered was it was her own decision, she made it and she didn't back down. she regretted a few i guess but if it was me, i'd be more proud because at least, i am able to look back and say i didn't have any 'what ifs'.

what took me in actually was when madonna visited her mom's tomb. just recently, one of my alaga's mom died. tanya texted me last thursday, saying we've got another angel watching over us. i met her mom once, when i arranged for her a meeting with my boss and it was only then that i learned that tita pinky had cancer and that two months prior to that meeting, her body stopped responding to chemo. i was taken by surprise with tanya's text and i didn't know what to say or do. i then resolved to texting tanya and so she told me that they cremated her mom early that thursday morning according to her mom's wish. and another one of her mom's wishes was to have a big party in honor of her which they will be having on november 9.

i admire tanya's strength from organizing everything and for being there with her mom all the time. even if it meant giving up a day's work just so she could be with her mom. i admire her mom because inspite of everything, she still managed to give everyone a smile upto her death.

and you bet, i will be there on november 9. to be merry and happy and to be able to enjoy life to the fullest. just what tita pinky did til the very last.