bowling and anger management

its been a year since i last played bowling and it was super fun! went bowling with my whole family last night, including my lola.. saya grabe! may chinese federation lang na may tournament dun pero kiber!!! i really insisted that we play bowling mainly because i was feeling kinda irky for some reason... okei, so the reason was that i was waiting for someone to react but i guess Newton's third law of motion doesn't really apply to him (for some, the law states that For every action, there's an equal and opposite reaction.) until now, my question is left unanswered.. SO does that mean, i don't mean much to that certain person? Or should i just stop finding meaning into everything that this person does?

The song, guys! The song!!! Look down... Grrrness na 'to ha... Sala sa init, sala sa lamig. Tulak ng bibig, kabig ng dibdib. Asar.

The bowling help though. In fairness!

song of the season

DON'T SAY YOU LOVE ME
The Corrs
Talk On Corners

I've seen this place a thousand times
I've felt this all before
And every time you call
I've waited there as though you might not call at all

I know this face I'm wearing now
I've seen this in my eyes
And though it feels so great, I'm still afraid
That you'll be leaving anytime

We've done this once and then you closed the door
Don't let me fall again for nothing more

Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away

I've caught myself smiling alone
Just thinking of your voice
And dreaming of your touch, is all too much
You know I don't have any choice

Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away
Yeah Yeah Yeah

We've done this once and then you closed the door
Don't let me fall again for nothing more

Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away

Say you love me
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away
Take it all away, take it all away

girls and crying

if a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she can't take it anymore.

If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of your life.

If you let her go, it wil be hard for her
to go back to being herself with you once again.

A girl wont cry easily,
except in front of the person whom she loves the most,
she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she'll put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
Because she's the one who is willing
to stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe because of your decision,
you'll ruin her life.

When she cries right in front of you,
When she cries because of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?


Think.


Which other girl has cried with pure sincerity,
In front of you
And because of you?


She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity.

She cries because crying silently is no longer possible...
The pain, hurt and agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys, think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on what you have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Because one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "I'm sorry".

movie review

midweek, i've watched three asian movies -- two were from korea and one was from china (i think)-- The Classic, Il Mare and Fly Me To Polaris.

Of the three, I liked Il Mare more. It was like living in the present but holding on to the past and then finally letting go of the past to keep the present and most especially, the future. Complicated ba? Basta its super ganda talaga.

"Look outside the window
If the branches swing gently in the wind
Then the one you love is loving you, too.

"Open your ears
If you hear your heartbeat
Then the one you love is loving you.

"Close your eyes
If there's a smile on your lips
Then the one you love is loving you, too."

-- The Classic

These were lines from the letters the guy in the movie sent to the girl. Why did I include it in this entry? On the contrary...

Because when I look outside my window, wala namang branches...

Because when I open my ears, I hear the sounds of the city, the noise, the commotion but not my heartbeat...

Because when I close my eyes, there's no smile on my lips... Only tears welling up inside.

..birthday stories..

this entry will be about my birthday so if you're not interested, then don't read it. (taray!)

i feel like i celebrated my birthday for three days - april 15-17!! hehehe... ate joebel (nene to yay) and i decided INUMAN na 'to that's why we made it a DOUBLE CELEBRATION!!

APRIL 15
people from interactive and talent center came and it was a treat when zen sang with the acoustic band at MIP grill.. syempre, si birthday girl ate joebel sang also... Kaso 'kala nila mapapakanta nila ko... bwahahaha! no way! pang-videoke lang 'to noh.. bad trip lang for this evening was bienne. i dont wanna say why.. basta, he's an asshole. grrrrness! so anyway. before midnight, ate joebel and i went "somewhere" and did something to say goodbye to "stuff" and wished our "birthday wishes"... then we returned to d inuman... got super drunk (syempre) so i'd give a special shoutout to yay for getting me home alright.. hehe, thanks yay! got home around 5am

APRIL 16
eto yung totoo kong bday.. woke up around 9 or 10am kc ginigising na ko ng mga tao sa bahay.. i finally got my new phone! anyway, i invited friends from college, high school and elem--all in all around 20 people for a "maliit na salu-salo".. tapos... 9 lang yung dumating! bad trip diba?! kilala niyo kung cno kayong mga di dumating! isang malupit na HMMMPP!!!! sa inyong lahat! si flokee din di dumating...booo!!!

APRIL 17
dunno y feeling ko bday ko pa din 'tong araw na 'to...though i was at work, pero people were still greeting me kasi and we had an inuman again at cza's place. had a long day actually which started out wrong kasi that inquiry for M.R.S. came in super late last night and i closed d deal 6am na! tapos may isa pa jan na nagagalit kasi tinulugan ko daw siya..hmmp! pero sori ulit... =)hehe. peace!

went to church first thing in d morning,then went to perform for PNK (late ako sa panata so absent na ko...huhuhuhu..) then went to asap for can this be love promo ni gabb and tanya, dashed to metropolis alabang for the Qpids mallshow.. monster na ko pagdating sa alabang, sobrang ang gulo ng mga tao sa backstage, shunga-shunga pa yung mga staff ng show, haaay no further comments na nga lang. pero i think the artistas enjoyed it naman, nuknukan lang ng init sa mall na yun. finally got back to homebase around 8pm, starved and delirious sa mga nangyari. havent eaten a single meal that day... later, had a drinking session at cza's -- nakadalawang baso lang ako ng rhum cokes and i gave up na coz i was extremely tired and sleepy, finally slept aroung midnight...


so there...parang journal, noh? thanks for everyone who made my birthday super fun!


THANKS TO:

Zen, Jen, Ate Dan, Ate Nhila, Ate Karen, Yay, Julius, Oyo Boy, Kuya EJ, Jun, Dan, Kuya Chowking, Sonny, Kuya Jerry and Ate Jane

Pam, Ad, Aque, Xseth, Bonna Mae, Quiao, Mafia, Cza, Arlee, Domer, Bryan

Love you guys!!

And sa lahat ng bumati, if i didn't reply.. pasensya na po.. i've two reasons: 1) lasing lang; 2) i thanked you from afar.. hehehehe.

tick..tock..tick..tock..

clock's ticking... in a couple of hours i'll be 22 na..haay, how time has flown. i can still remember my fab bday last year at mcdonald's. haha, everyone had a blast! you should try it- a children's party at 21! hahaha.. but this year.. hmmm, i'll just stay home and maybe shop for some shoes. lol. i shopped for clutch bags earlier today- grabe! i'm sooo happy with my purchases! teehee.. so while waiting for 12 midnight, i guess i better do some preparations. ate joebel and i are planning to do something once it hits 12 midnight... just a simple way of celebrating our birthdays...

tick... tock... tick... tock...

..dream without you..

"I don't wanna dream if my dream is without you
I don't wanna sleep if my dream will only be blue
I don't wanna hear the words, I don't wanna feel your touch
All I know is that you hurt me so much.."

"Only in my dreams can I hold you, only there shall I call you mine. But when my dreams are finally over, reality accepts and proclaims that you are someone who could never be mine.."

"Last night I had a dream about you, but when I woke up, I was hugging my pillow. How I wish tonight I'd dream of my pillow and wake up hugging you.."

"People say that I should stop living in a dream world. They say that I would never get what I want. But when it comes to you, well... Dreams are the only things I can count on.."

who understands men?? not me!!

1. The nice men are ugly.
2. The handsome men are not nice.
3. The handsome and nice men are gay.
4. The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.
5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.
7. The handsome men without money are after our money.
8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.
9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.
10. The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE
THE FIRST MOVE!!!!
11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.


NOW, WHO THE HELL UNDERSTANDS MEN?


"Men are like a fine wine. They all start out like
grapes, and it's our job to stomp on them and keep
them in the dark until they mature into something
you'd like to have dinner with."

weddings, food poisoning, dreams (uh-gen)

food poisoning.

had a really bad day at work tuesday morning. was throwing up so bad that my throat already hurt and i was puking every 5 minutes or so. grabe. d doctor at d clinic said it must've been sumthin i ate and i think it was.. o, ingat nlng kayo sa siomai ha. dnt wana say where i bought it, bsta yun na yun. but im stil under observation so i'm not allowed to drink which is a really bad thing coz my birthday's coming up...oh well...


weddings.

juleby's getting married tomorrow!!! layo nga lang coz it takes about an hour and a half to get there. but i'm excited for her. sobrang tagal na nila ng jowa nya noh and finally they're getting married. haaay, can't wait.


dreams.

just when i posted in my blog that my dreams of him stopped, i dreamt of him again last night!!! damn. and the dream was: he was on a date with some other girl !?! kakainis. good thing i don't know who the girl was. but as usual, i can't remember much of my dream so i'm good. hehehe...

happy weekend everyone!!!

and then it stopped...

and then the dreams stopped... i wasn't stressed 'nough lately and i don't think i'm having big problems with anything or anyone for the matter... the dreams just stopped...

i dunno if i should be happy about it or what but i'm feeling kinda melancholy. its been 4 days since i last dreamt of him and i kinda miss my dreams of him. but i guess if dreams have somehow started, it should also somehow end. and i guess that's the end of it.. the end of him? maybe... bcoz i was kinda holding on to him in my dreams and now that it stopped, well, i guess its really time..

time to let go.. finally.

nuffin much

i had my stitches removed! grabe i was so relieved! i thought it was gona hurt pero di nmn pla. walang anesthesia or nethin ha, pero i felt d thread pa din as it was bein removed.i'll be back again in two weeks for the right top wisdom tooth removed naman...haay wish me luck.

graduation na! grabe, dami nmin graduates ngyon..meron 1 knina, 2 tomorrow and 1 more on friday..haay! nkkamiss ang school days.

and speaking of which, met up with some good ol' friends last sat evening though mejo sad lng ung reason y we got together.. my best friend florie's friend was shot earlier last week in a bar brawl, he got 2 gunshot wounds in his head. daym. so we, florie and i and mafia, went to see him. it was really sad coz he just graduated last year and passed board exams and was an engineer na and finally got a great paying job when he passed away. he was just at the wrong place at the wrong time.. newei, mafia and i didnt stay inside coz we were just there for flo so wyl flo was doing her thang with her friends, mafia and i got to talkin. grabe, i learned a lot! sobra. like, the past week had been a learning experience. been reading this really good book:

he's just not that into you

and it's really helpful ha, i might say. gatungan pa ni mafia. the stuff he pointed out might have some adverse effects on my way of thinkin from now on. d notorious chinese mafia.. so what did i learn? GUYS DON'T MIND MESSING UP THE FRIENDSHIP.